My gloves are off!!!

I was trying desperately to find the balance with family life , work life and my creative outlet...it all became too much.........._-

Life was starting to feel more of a rat race . A race i wished to be longer apart of, i felt my family was no better for it and the monetary side was simply just not balancing out. Not with childcare cost rocketing with every change of a nappy. When worked out I was paying someone else to raise to my kids so I can go to work with very little left over for much else. What was the point..........and the stress of it all. Oh do not get me started on the stress aspect and always feeling like I was letting somebody down, my kids, my home, my husband ,  my friends and my work mates. Something had to give so obviously work had to go. Once my husband and I discussed it and thought over it for a few good stressful months..I was then able to say goodbye to the NHS after nearly 10 years of working within it. The relief was indescribable!!!. more on that later...must dash to make breakfast for the 2 year old. Life is getting better.

Mindful Momnets

Pondering in Germany

I am visiting my german family at the moment and hoping to improve my german but to no avail on day 3!  But really...I was thinking about the first time I came to this house ( my husbands mother and her second husband (great choice by the way Annette!!)father. It was here we told the news we were expecting our first child. I was 30 then and remember the midwife refering to me as an ölder mother .

Well .......you can only imagine the shock.........Me !!! older mother!!! how very dare you ..how very dare you indeed!

I found it so appaüling..because I was so fit and healthy at the time and looked and felt ( if I may say 10 years my junior) so young..........the lable threw me for 6! especially when I look around the playground I frequent and see women in their mid 40's heavily pregnant and proud!!! Good for them but I AM NOT AN OLDER MUM!!!